i thought i would just abandon this blog...
but i guess it needs a closure so here goes...

was just surfing around blog-hopping and everyone who took the As this year, well, is glad its over and looking forward...
some already feel lost with nothing to do, others, schedule packed and all..
girls looking for jobs..
guys looking forward ( i suppose..haha..) to serving the country...

oh wells, im no different. glad its over..
and as usual i'll start to reminisce...
oh and i am one of those whose schedule is quite packed and full..

i have no regrets being in AJ..
everything was meant to be the way it was suppoosed to be and im happy with how things turned out..
every failure made me stronger..
and every success, i owe it to the people whose been there for me through these two years...

this is gonna sound like i won a Grammy award or something,
but still,
to all those who happen to come across this blog of mine and somehow, sometime along the two years in aj, my sincere thanks, for having been there in my life. it was fated, yet thank you. somehow i feel like im entering a new chapter in life again.
even if it was a smile, a hug, those encouragement, the laughter we shared, even the tears and everything. thank you. feeling quite emo after looking through pictures and all...

there's so much i want to do...and accomplish...if there's one thing i've learnt is to be true to yourself, and to always always look for the rainbow at the end of the rain. a silver lining behind the clouds. and to be strong and Allah is always there. and pray and mever lose hope. and things are meant to be the way it is. and just live life to the fullest.

as much as i adore sleeping, i realise now, suddenly really after As, dont sleep too much. 8 hours is more than enough...coz the more you sleep, its actually a waste of time..if you sleep 10 hours, the excess 2 hours could be done doing something more useful like reading the Quran, even watching a movie, hanging out with the people you love, tutoring a kid giving insights to him/her...anything...so no more more than 8 hours of sleep.

i cant be more thankful now. though it was a rocky tough year this year actually, painful. yet, everything's for the better now. and now i need to do my part to pay for any mistakes i made.

remind me of this post if i ever complain again.

i think the movies lakehouse, sweet november and kal ho naa ho partly explains the emo-ness im feeling today too..and definitely the sweet sound of dido's voice singing life for rent...


ok. mama just came back and she is asking us whether we wanna go down to greenridge to eat...and i shant give any more excuses. yes mum!

.:enamored_hunn was pricked and bled at 7:37:00 pm:.
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sometimes its better not to know the truth.

coz basically truth hurts.

really.

more confused state than ever. sighX.

unique.


ohh, and to those who dont noe yet, im moving house to bukit panjang. *prays for the minimum minahs and mats there* but i've been warned. by my fellow nuttie, the macadamia. ahh. but thats the least of my worries lah. so dont send me letters to bishan anymore. im going to miss bishan so so so badly. im in such a big mess.sighX.

anyway,
to all A level candidates this year, goodluck and study hard! study v v hard! you dont wanna regret this coz there'only 70++ more days left! hang on! we're all in this together.!

hah. cya after A levels. i hope.

.:enamored_hunn was pricked and bled at 5:46:00 pm:.
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i want to give her strength.

but i myself am falling apart inside.

how do i give strength then?

not so strong after all.


meeting VIII tmr.
can't wait.=)
one of my few sources of strengths.
the other sources seems to be fading away.
not for good i hope. :X

.:enamored_hunn was pricked and bled at 10:21:00 pm:.
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to zy:
haha.this is funny we're replying each other on each others' blog.lol. the "forgotten" part is someone close to you. ha. and other people ah.not only one person. but maybe it's just me being too sensitive again. u noe me. i get carried away sometimes but i was really hurt. *sobz* u better not forget me hor. haha. u noe how insecured i can get. lol.


anyway,
today was a better day. and nothing can make it better than knowing and hearing about a real love story unfolding right before my eyes. nah, not superman and loise lane like the pic below. of course there's no superman. fiction. but the love is non-fiction. lwhen i look at the picture below, i think of kakak an and him. it's so sweet! they even have their own blog. and the tag-board is only dominated by the two of them. and they started out with how they met each other. it's so sweet and funny i wanna laugh and cry at the same time. their story really inspires me. maybe gives me hope. after all, im only 18.haha. she's 25. nevertheless it gives me hope. she's like me you see. dont have many guy friends, quite reserved when it comes to this issue and all. and she's been waiting for him for so longg. and finally she met him and they're sailing right through now. ada hikmah di sebalik semuanya. and you noe whats the sweetest sweetest thing i thought about them, they're so shy! and when they finally opened up, he said to her " After 5 yrs I finally met u. What took u so long? I wanna make it rite this time. Lets do this together dear. Luv ya so much! Thx". awwww, especially the first part. it's like patience you noe. not just in this area, but everything requied patient. i read love stories in books, and sometimes i just dont believe that it really happens coz it's always so picture perfect. but now, it's really happening to my dearest dearest cousin who has waited sooo long. i guess she prayed real hard. and i've never NEVER seen her so happy. her story gives me hope. i really pray she'll be happy with him. insya-Allah. maner tahu boleh makan nasi minyak ke, jadi kendarat soon. muahahhaa. luckily she doesnt read my blog. khekhe.











funny how im so distracted by this thing, when there's so many things gg during this period of time.

.:enamored_hunn was pricked and bled at 7:24:00 pm:.

it sucks to be forgotten.


oh wells. yesterday was a horrid day. as much as i wanted to enjoy career fair i was just distaracted by soo many things and so many actions people did around me.
and zhiyen, if your reading this, sorry boud yest online at msn K? i didnt mean what i said. and i noe when u said"so scary" u meant me right? haha. i can be a bit weird sometimes i know. sorry..i was really having a bad day.


thank god kakak an had good news when she came over to my house. at least something. so proud of her.

ahh, all i can say now is let it go man. today's a holiday.yesterday was the past.

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havent been here in a while now.

well, basically i've screwed up midyears.just wait for results really. hah. but i cant be bothered any more. time to work harder really. but not NOW. im still in the enjoying mood after watching superman returnS(WooHOOlove it!my hero.), cars and hikmah and a whole lot of other shows the past weekend.

ok. i just wanna anounce 2 things. one, ive changed my hp number and i've messaged everyone on my contact list. but if those of you my friends who happen to read this blog, and didnt receive my sms, tag me ok! i'll give you my new number :) dont really wanna put it here. k. two, AJ DRAMA on 14th July 2006!!! anyone interested? msg me ok?? last year's drama was gOOD! according to the feedback of the audience so this year's gonna be good as well so come!! 8pm at aj auditorium.

well, i screwed up oral also but i dont wanna think about it. met sharini there and realised how much i miss my primary school friends. and no, im not influenced by adib who talked about his primary school days on his blog, hah..but really miss them. it's like i used to go to Filzah's house practically everyday after primary school and play with her cat and theme park and the sims and we would just talk and scream in her empty house and laugh and laugh. or if not we will just be engrossed reading storybooks in her cosy cosy room. aircon somemore.lol. man i love that girl. we were so close then thati still remmeber so clearly when we fought i cried in malay class and cikgu jumaina had to lead me out of class. but i noe things so different now, she's in her world i'm in mine. she's changed so have i, cant deny that. heard she has a bf now. that girl that used to hate guys.lol. and look who has a bf first.hah. i know she'll never read this, but I don’t noe it’s just so hard to approach some one you don’t noe anymore.. and I don’t noe, maybe she doesn’t remember the things I remember and treasure. Argh. I noe that’s assuming but, haiz. I’ll always be praying she’s happy and always being a great gal to her great parents.
and besides her, of course there’s hafiana and diyanah and sharini too. We used to be close. Especially me and diyanah. Her mom noes me and her being in the same ngaji as me, I’d accompany her home when she was scared of the mats under her block. Some hero I was trying to be. LOL, come to think of it that was so funny. But I guess I was so unnoticeable and small back then that they didn’t disturb me and disturb duyanah more like it so I accompanied her home. Haha. But I heard from sharini she’s changed a whole lot. But somehow I noe inside she’s still the same person. The same sweet diyanah I noe. Gossipi her. LoL. But I miss her too lah. And sharini and hafiana. Hafiana hafiana. *shakes head* haiz. Entah lah. Sharini had a date with *aheM* the last time I heard during oral. I wish her the best man. And as usual, back away hunn. Mengundur diri lah aku lagi. Ok nvm. Some of u would understand. I don’t noe, as much as I miss them, I doubt im being missed. But just hope they all be successful in their lives dunia and akhirat, insya-Allah. I wish to meet up with them, maybe we’ll meet again in U or something in working life or something, but till then. I really really miss them and love them.


Why am I so emo today?
Haiz

oh well. anyway, watching mega perdana now, i've always wanted to join dikir barat. ahah. no opportunity i guess. and last year we wanted to put up a dikir barat performance and tak jadi also.

ahh, something to be happy about would definitely be the brownies turned out well again. after the backfire of the last brownies ugh. ming na and seeming and me set off at 12.45 after skul to go to some free dental check up, but ended up at toa payoh polyclinic at the dental clinic to go for check up and our teeth were all ok! haha! how paranoid can we get man! having cavaties and all. and that cost me 7 dollars plus. and the next appointment is on 23rd november. according to seeming, it's good we have a check up then then our teeth will be shining during prom but im having second and third thoughts in fact about gg to prom. really. oh well, anyway, there was thi policeman who was saying to us "walk straight turn right and take the lft up the 3rs level". and we were like all puzzled how did he knoWW we were gg to the dentist??? like, does it say in our face, oh we're going to the dentist please tell us the direction, or does our teeth really look bad that he just KNOWs we were gg to the dentist. anyway, after gg up to the dentis, gg down to the pharmacy, up again and down again (mingNA!haha) we were done and took off. and while gg out we met the same policeman, and he said, sorry girls and (cutally bowed a bit when he said sorry) and he said that he thought we were gg to the old folks home on the third floor which happneed to be on the third level. and we laughed and he smiled. and that was when i fell for him.lol. crush lah.infactuation. he was so humble, k not humble maybe nice, like he had the moral courage, k not moral courage but guts to just comeup to us and say sorry that he made us confused and all. it was so sweet. lol. see, im easily pleased man. do ajcians like always go tot the old folks hime to volunteer or smth? maybe thats why he got confused. oh, and mingna caught his name. she thinks its Ali. lol. ok lah. enough about that.

holiday this thursday cant wait. class outing! yeayness. at aileen's house watching movie. friday, interhouse netball, hope everything runs smoothly, and mark, if you're reading this, sorry cant pplay. dont wanna play lah, its more imprt that the event runs smoothly since im the head of the thing than playing a agame that im already so used to. and im umpiring so cant exactly play all the time right.im sure xuemin they all willd o just fine. netball's really a team game, sometimes even when you have a few star players it doesnt work out.

k, im so sleepy now. wanna say more stuff but thats about it now. toodles.

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.:enamored_hunn was pricked and bled at 3:04:00 pm:.

people seek solace in music, films, books....
they seek similarity...they seek familiarity. relations to one's life with the music/film/book.

i'm no different.

but i can still cope. my story is manageable. coz i believe that if he birngs you to it, HE will bring you through it. just gets a bit rough sometimes..especially when happy memories relinguish and you just cant help comparing to situations now. and when there's a pain in your heart, tearing, begging to differe between forgiveness and anger and pity. when sometimes you feel hurt, but at times angry. but you noe u should forgive. but just cannot because of the pain he put you through. i can see things getting worse. just hope it doesnt get there. it's enough that we have to move house during my prelims. maybe nearing As after prelims. i dont noe. but it's serious this time. looking at people come and go looking surveying my beloved bishan home.
i'm over the stage of asking why did this happen. now at the stage of whats going to happen after this.

but i can still handle it. there are stories worse than mine. stories involving the lost of a loved one. thats definitely more painful than what im experiencing now. much more. my heart goes out to these people.

.:enamored_hunn was pricked and bled at 2:11:00 pm:.
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sometimes, situations put u in a position where you just have no choice but whatever you do will make u seem like "the bad guy".

hmm, how true is that......


anwyay,
it's been a really whirly-rocking-dizzying-happy-sad-and-every-other-emotion two weeks. i'm really short of time to describe them.
but,
to summarise it real short,
AB camp 2006 rocks!!
being an instructor sure make me realise a lot of stuff. and grow up too if i must say.
and the MAlaysia trip rocks even more.
=) =)
yeah, limited to the word -rocks. but i'm too lazy to update about it. just wanna say thankx to all those who were with me these past two weeks and made this year's first two weeks of june holidays very very memorable. you people noe who u are. lOve ya ALL! :)

ohh, to suli, hehe thankx for the advice ! :) i'll hold on to that especially since there's a shortage of time for me to study now. khekhe. Mr lim kim thye only said need to pass alll subs right.hmmm.
me-to-suli: how are you anyway? kat maner skarang?


and good luck to me for the next two weeks. really. especially now that im gg for the 30 hr netball carnival thingey this sat and sunday. meL! all ur fault! haha. i thought wanna have outing or smth when u called me! then skali, i agreed to smth else. wth. and so now, besides having that, there's interhousenetball to settle, and dsa to go for, and tuition with taufiq(im so not satisfied with his results) and training and two imporatnt birthdays coming up. *ahem* and muggiNG??

and most importantly, making mama laugh. really. coz if i dont achieve other stuff, there's always other opportunities. but being there for mama in this period of time so crucial, that i can never get back. not that i want anything like it to happen again. but, it's now, the moment. that we have to stick together, coz we only got each other.i pledge to be a clown at home giving her every reason to laugh and smile through the tears we all shed silently.


promise not to be selfish anymore :X
shant be jealous. coz its an evil emotion.


hmm, sometimes i wonder could it be more than that. more than just what u potray on the surface. hidden stuff. wish i had powers like professor X. haha. read minds.
but then again...
hmm, k lah. tired already. im probably not gg to be here very often now. to all those mugging mug hard and get those well-deserved results. (unlike me :S)

but what is impt, is the end result. hehe.

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