neW year's Eve todAy!! so fast gg to 2005...i wanna go back tk!!! bahhh...i somehow dun want 3rd jan to come... i wanna go back tk tk tk....ahhhhh, all mY friends there...im gonna MMMIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSS them so much...haiyoh esp the netballers...my forever teammates...i feel funny having new teammates at aj now... doesnt feel right...maybe im not used to them yet ahh..i just dun feel like i will ever bond with them as much as i have b0nded with the tk team...haish.ahhhh.but life goes on...today gg ah wei's house to play games...cant wait to see theM..yest bumped into fana,wl and deb at bugis while i was with shy,didi and anoi... reallY misss them... i was glad glad that we buumped...will meet wl today ahh,, but fana and deb i rarely see wan.. except during funny events like the ria netball duo tournament that fana and me took part in..haha, dat was lame.. but fun...yeah anyway, i havent made a new yearresolution yet...and imnow realy broke..yest aso went metro sale at expo and like ended up spending 50 bucks..supposed to go town, but nvm...and the tsunami tragedy reallli sad sia, so many many ppl die...haiiz..yest was watching news on the way home on my 28 fav bus(ahakz.reminds me of sum1) and then almost cried when they were telling abt this mom who was on holiday and then the tsunami came and had to let go of one child coz she couldnt hold on to two...she let go of the elder one..man, that must have been like a heartbreakingy tuff decision to decide which to let go in that short span of time...lucky liraculously the one she let go survived after holding on to a pole i think for 20 hours..phew....anyway, very sad case ahhh...my family now giving clothes to the behind tekka mall there...hope more and more people will help....haiiz what a thing to happen when 2004 ending...

anyway, happy new year to all....may u have a great 2005 ahead filled with happiness and love...
and happy skooling! ugh.


.:enamored_hunn was pricked and bled at 8:41:00 am:.
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i quit my job.boohoo? happy? i aso dunnoe what to feel..what's that called ambivalent feelings ah? hhaa... no work means no monehh...got work means no time..Haish. well, anyway, i sent in my resignation form already, so tmr's my last day...im gg KL. finally, a holiday...well, it's not australia or Us or somewhere realli far, but i'm still happy im gg on a holiday.setting off on saTurday..cvoming back on tues...partly ccz of this i quit ahh..they din wanna gimme leave from mon to wed (wed gt class chalet and i have to be there since half the classs com already gone overseas) so they dun wanna gimme leave i quit ahh, wouldn't miss this holiday ahh, time to have a bit of fun.. and yeah, i do miss my famile, my bro my sis, my cousins....it's time i spent some time with theM ahh..kk...anyway, very tired liao, been calling all mua classmates to inform them abt chalet..hope it's a success man...

while i was on the trasport bus on my way home today iw as thinking of smth...emo laahh as usual..but i was like picturing this scene in my mind..about friendship...not just ordinary friends, but close friends... (ooh, i just wacthed kuch kuch hota hai again..haha)

anyway, the story goes like this:

i'm in my skl uniform,(nt sure what skl), it is recess(breaktime?), im having a bad day and i'm buying my food, then i felt sum1 queueing up behind me.automatically i noe who it is behind me, sumone who is very close to me,my best friend i guess,that i even noe it's her behind me.. and so without turning around i ask her what's she eating today, but i already noe, coz i noe her fav everyday food..but there's no answer..and i turn round, and realize that she's been crying...but no one notices except me, coz i'm the onli one who noes how she looks like when she cries.. i noe, and she noes..and we make eye contact...and we noe, what happened, probably the night before.. and we go to our fav spot in the skl, where it's our spot, and no one else noes where it is..and when we get there, she cries, and i dun need to ask why coz i already noe...instead i just say it's ok, and hug her...and we just stone, and think...while we hug...and be there for each other...and then when she has had enuff of crying, she tells me eveything, so that i understand and i feel good, knowing that i can be there for my best friend.. and we hug again, and just keep quiet..and it just feels alright, my problems too seem far away when i know that she's near, to guide me, and 4 me to guide her in this thing called life..

i wish i cld find sumone like her...am i expecting too mucH? maybe. but life is good now, i wann abe thankful for what i have for now...2004 almost gg, next year ajc for first 3 months in 2005....seems so fast, and as usual as every year past, every memory is taken along with me, every pain,sadness,happiness,sorrow...moments of anger,anguish....but the best part is, i believe that i've come out of 2004, a 16 year old, a stronger person.. and that's the best part really, all the pain i've experienced has made ame a stronger person no doubt, and now thta tk will only be a memory, i shant cry that it's over, but i'll smile coz it happened. :)

tommorrow may not be.


.:enamored_hunn was pricked and bled at 10:10:00 pm:.
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Time has come, what's done is done
It's time to move on
To another place, another space, maybe circling some other sun
Don't ask why, don't ask how
I still can't explain
To say goodbye, goodbye for now till I see you again

In the sunlight that's where I'll be
In the moon night close your eyes, you will see me
In the sunrise in the twilight I'll be the morning and the evening star
I will be there with you wherever you are

Life is strange, such joy and pain
The betrayal and the kiss
It maybe meant to be, maybe destiny
Leads us down a path like this
Child is born, true love is sworn
All the in-between
Well you just walk on, walk on until the path is gone
Learning love is the only everything

So it's goodnight, things go wrong
but it's alright
We're all just passin' through here
At the speed of light







i LOOOVVEEE this song...well, i love sweet november(the movie) and also cellophane by amada ghost. what a name. ghost? hmmm...ok..

ANYWAY, wassup wif my life now is that im working 9.5 hours, travelling 2 hours, 8 hours of sleep, 1/2 hr for stoning and searching for things, 1.5 hour for bath/pray/eat/talk to family dearest/blah/blah/blah/rest and the and the remaining 2.5 hours for freetime like now.

well, at least it gets better on sat and sundays when im freeeee.

40 bucks a day for that kinda lifestyle for 1 month. oh well, i need the money for neXt year so better start now....im sos ad dat didi and anoi are not working with me..gets kinda lonely facing machines with no friends at the factories. and my gosh do they have a lot of MINahs there. ugh. so sombong . cant stand it. but the makciks are nice. haha. oh well, the motor chips and machines in the factory are currently my friends...haha, how sad... the food's good and cheap, im so touchy when it comes to food la, veggies are a must for me, and cheap. heh. cerewet cerewet. anyways, so far it's been two days, dunnoe how long i'll stay at NIDEC.japanese company ahhh. like the ones we learn in social studies in sec 3. hahZ.half of me wanna go back kallang macs. rellay, im a more people-oriented person than a machine-oriented person, if there's sucha thing.anyway, i miss my friends.like evryone.. boohooo. seriously man, im wondering how the rest are spending their holidays....sleeping? i want! ahopping? i want! gg out everyday? i aso want! haiihoz. but if u need money, well, gotta work for it...

anyway, in the meantime im aso planning class chalte! so any 4e4ians, remember 22nd and 23rd dec ah!! it's gonna be a whole lot of fun reallY! gonna try and get back the video that mr and weejin took for our class during the eng acting ins ec 3 and we can wacth together! woohoo. can't wait for that, at least it's something too look forwared to~~!! and also where is that robert? grr, supposed to go out lahhh....play table tennis? haha, my sudden craze, ever since azidah brought them to chalet...liana has disappeared as usual. haiiyoh. netballies gg kayaking, can i take leave and go :'( my pri skl mates also have disappeared...dun even noe when to meet up to pass their bdae pezzies-sharini and filzah- an dtheir bdae was in like what? november. haiz.


ok.i shant be sad. im sick of being sad and depressed.i'd rather be hyper! :P k lahh, i betta take a rest if i wanna stay awake in work tmr. ciaoz.

ps: any 4e4ian please e-mail or msg me or call me if ur gg. not free from 6am to 5.30 pm... hahaZ. take care eveyone. happy working to those working.


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