chasing daylight...

:Tuesday, March 29, 2005:

i wonder if i'll ever be able to talk to him again...for now, i think my silence speaks it all...about my anger, my disappointment,my embarrassment towards him and what he did...

things will never be the same again around here....

argh.

screw.

"people only care about people who care about themselves"

oh well, at least i have one good news, i'm in the same class as some of my 1st 3 mths classmates...dats smth to be happi about... ohh, and today i practically dozed off at every lesson for at least 5-10 minutes..there must be a setan sitting on my eye...im always falling asleep anywhere...blearghz...i cant stand myself sometimes... so irritated...ohh and im getting jiwang reading all these malay love novels...haha...it puts me in fantasy land basically...away from this life...

i wanna be in love.
hmmm, is it possible to be in love with a hcaracter in the book?
muakhakhakha...i think im gg mad...sigh.
okayy, gotta go teach hariz now.

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:Wednesday, March 23, 2005:

wad a horrible/bOring/disappointing DAY.

:(

today's a bad day.

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:Monday, March 21, 2005:

im feeling hyper now!
woohoo! haahahha...
wow. i feel great.
no apparent reason actually.maybe becoz the day went well ah...
had a fun day today- pon two lessons to go macs to eat with my classmates, took neoprint(yeay! i mss spending smth on myself) then training was actualli quite nice...yea except the sprints ahh.. haha...
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIDI!! man do i miss her....ahhhhh, i wish i cld go over to vj and just give her a hugg.... ok letme think.what else happened today that make me happy now. hmmm, basically everything went smoothly, i tie my hair( sum idiots say i act cute but im not oK! tying up got act cute meh?) and so i like happ y happy..and then, malay lesson was FUn(haha!),watched anna and the king for two whole periods..damn slack...then foolowed khadijah's og group do slam down da funk dance for a while(so fuN! so sad im not an OGF), then went to play piano! (kal ho na ho!) wahh, im really hyper....haha...yeay...yeay.. im so happy today...please not let anything ruin this feeling ryte now...im on da top of the world...blah blah blah....heard the GPA ppl practising in reading room while having training..hope they can win!!! yeay, i love their beat...kinda wish the malay ppl were closer u noe..like then can unite a bit...hmm, well maybe after 2nd intake...anywaym im gg for GPA finals! planning to buy tickets tmr..10 bucks..money money money. bleargh....well anyway, i wanna keep my hyper mood up. tmr practically my whole class pon skl, but of coz, being the guai girl i am, im gg...haha..i kinda don wanna miss out the ffun of fidning out the rest of the ppl who wil be ur sklmates at 8 am rather than facing the comp at home and just saying"oh, wow i go in aj" oh well, skl end quite early tmr so i dun mind....anyway, there's nothing to do at hoem..and summore miss ong already say must be on schedule for work now that season coming up ( -_-") ahz...well anyway, im getting a BIT sleepy now...hope im still hyper tmr! cant wait for orientation.hope my new OG is fun and enthu.then i'll have a rocking time maNz....yeay yeay! *HYPER*

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:Sunday, March 20, 2005:

helloz....
yeay.i feel better..havent done homework tho, but who cares. cant be bothered for now....found thi ssomewhere...

Like courtship - or even more so - friendship requires time, effort and reciprocity.
While courting parties can demand commitment of each other directly, the expectations in a friendship are usually implicit, subtle and unsaid, and as a result, more prone to neglect.
You may love your friends very much, but if they don't hear from you for an extended period of time, it's only human nature that they wonder just how much you really care about them.
As the late civil rights leader Martin Luther King Jr said: 'In the end, we remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.'

really agree with that...anyway, it's kinda fast march holidays are over...cant imagine that just last year it was my last east zone and all...and now soon its gonna be A division..hahz. i've been having thoughts of wearing tudung.not now, but dont noe.ohhhhh i got a new song catogarised under one of my fav song- frankie j obsession.

Amor , no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that I have in my heart

ahhhh so nice...esp love the tune...

yeayness, banu's coming over today...ok la im supposed to teach her a maths but yea i kinda miss hanging out..it seems that im always at home dng housework -_-" or teaching hariz. haiz. wish a miracle would happen for my little bro. anyway, kinda excited to go back skl...Aj aint as boring as people think laaa..realli hope on the 2nd intake get to see more people i know like from pri skl, (from tk no hope ah..ahha) and from ugama class maybe? hope sharini can get in....hope my new class is fun. i hate dead classes. so far i've been lucky. haha.i realli love the photo and the quote weel put up on netball blog....nice sia...on my friendster already... hehe...hope she doesnt mind is it copyright-ed? heh. and i hope i get back mr akshir as my gp teacher!! he rox rox rox rox...haha...ok la to all those gg back skool happy skooling.!!!

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:Tuesday, March 01, 2005:

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you rightnow
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I neverhad
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's whatdestiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funnyI remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'emI'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole nightcrying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr.Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't likeit
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab itI'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me outTo see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you'resisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't f**k with dad (haha)

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