poor didi...

twice in a row her plans crushed like that....sigh if only peple were more appreciative of efforts done to-keep-in-contact-with-each-other..at least the planner wont end up getting hurt herself...man, to didi, realli sorrie today didn't work out. guess everyone's too busY.

hmm, ok i need somthing else to look forward to..chalet? yups. 2nd-3rd dec. sadly its onli one day coz lack of $$$. haiz.

and this is sucha small world.
just at Changi Hospital just now bumped into so many people.
it was FUll of muslims there.

every ward seemed to have more than one malay as a patient. and the visitors were soo many.
and the hospital kinda turned into a "coffeshop" when the many many people were sitting around the "waiting area" which had a Tv, watching the match between S'pore and LAos..quite comical.

bahh, i hope im going out tmr.

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he's doing it again.




to not give would bring me guilt and pity for him.



to give would piss someone else off.
not to mention giving him hope to ask for more.
and also not to mention im not supposed to be the one giving him.















caught in the middle.



what should i do?
*sighX*

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pics are worth a thousand words? yeah...



tHAnkx you SOOO much for all those who wished me! late or earlY! =D

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there goes my sweet 16. =)


and aloha 17!



=)

=)

=)

the past two days have been great. its been one of my luckiet birthdays having two birthday cake, one on the 18th, and the other on the 18 of November.lol.like the last real real birhtday cake with all the candles and a lot of people singing hapy birthday song was when i was 10 or something when I was wearing that white dress with that tiara.lol.plus singing titanic theme song at the birthday party at my house as a dare. lol.


thank you sOOO mUCH to 3805 for that wonderfuL WONDERFUL birthday gift and also the really wonderful card. i realli treasure it loads. and of course the surprise birthdat cake at pizza hut..i cant deny i saw the birthday card and the money collected for the birthday present, but i really didnt expect a cake! u guys kept that well! lol. thanks so much! though i would like to punish myself further for that stolen MP3 which i recklessly left in my bag and abandoning it, but now that i have another MP3 bought by you guys, i'll use it immediately and promise to take care of it better than the last one, especially that this one means so much more by 23 of you guys and gals. thanks!!

and we carried cheng yao at pizza huT! lol.

and yesterday after training, another surprise bdae cake! and prezzie too...!!! thank you you gals rock my world k. =) =) especially to zhiyen, jolz and adel who shopped so long for the present! thank you soooo much! realli like the wallet yeah. and the cake was delicious. heee. though i feel extremely fat now, but its not everyday u receive a cake from the people you love. hee.

i was so bad at the cakes coz im so not used to it. it was so hard to blow the candles out.and at pizza hut i couldnt think of anything to wish for until xuemin prompted me. lol! coz i couldnt be more thankful that there were 24 people (including mr loh) who was singing me a birthday song all together.yeay.just made me very happy. glad to be in high spirits now. and then yesterday i was surprised too that i almost cut the cake before blowing the candles out.LOL. im such an idiot.haha.

nevertheless, all the junk at Sentosa on friday and the heavy dinner at night made me had diarrhoea yesterday morning till night. so i had an early night at 8.45pm coz i was half dead by then. it takes energy you noe.haha.k dats disgusting. but anyway, i jerked awake at 12.03am...lol. like someone gave me and electric shock.


thank you to all those who have wished me so far!! and pram was the unexpected first to wish me at 12am! lol. thanks. to fizah, jolyn, qixiang, zhiyen, mark, deb and selina for their early and right-on-time wishes.heeee.

and my bro generous this year. and sweet too. gave me a bottle of whole-punched pieces of papers..those small round circles of papers that you get after you punch a piece of paper..and so he punched so much till he filled a whole glass bottle that ususally contains paper-made stars.and hid a 50 bucks note inside!! and when he gave it to me i was like..err thank you. hahha. coz couldnt see the $$ then i thought it was a joke giving whole-punched papers.lol. then when i opened it, waH -LAH! the 50 bucks note came out. thankx BROTHER! haha. you rock. even though ur broke but still give me 50..haha. i shall stop being such a save-every-bit-of-money-i-have for once and spend that 50 bucks on myself. its so rare i do that.hehee....


and i heard my sis MADE me something..hee.thanks sis.


kk..i shant write so much... but thanks again to everyone who has made this year's birthday extra special and nice ! and all the well wisheS! thanks! =)

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yeayness...

im trying to look forward now..

will be going to sentosa today for class outing!!
and tmr will be gg to see VIII and visit LX. not a happy happy thing that LX is in hospital but tis still considered as a gathering and im sure LX wil be happy to see us...WHeeEE!
and sunday will be jalan raya!! and syukur better not throw any rotten eggs on me. hmPH!
and monday! will be umpiring. ((hopefully))
and tuesday!! harrY poTTER.!!! yeayness..

i just cant wait. =D


its time i put everythind aside and live life for once.

but im still jealous that Zhiyen is going capetown (is it capetown?) and im stuck here in Singapore.haha. ok i make singapore sound so bad. lol. just want to breathe some fresh new air dats all...


A levels and O levels are coming to an end sooN?? whee!! bet those taking them are in the verge of rejoicing....

when a challenge is there in front of you, face it. dont turn away or give up half way.if not, then you'll really be called a loser. never give up on the first fall because "our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising every time we fall"

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yeayness. me fizah and zaw baked cinnamon cookies yesterday!

they came over my house. i swear me and zaw were so impromptu and all... we were at toa payoh then suddenly felt like baking so we went ntuc to get the recipe behind the cornflake cereal box then walaH! we were buying all the ingredients. then waited for fizah at my busstop and we were off baking at my house. well, at least we did it though its already halfway through HAri RAya. lol. maybe this is for HAri Raya HaJi lahh..haha.


SL today was alright. a bit disappointed but cant expect much i guess...its ok lah. we have 7 more sessions to buck up. right.


im trying to handle things as best as i can.but there's a certain level of patience i have.dont cross the line please.


They can say
Anything they want to say
Try to break me down
But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me
And they can try
How to make me feel that I
Don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter in what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams







holidays always gets me thinking. just blog-hopped all the way to liyana's blog. haha. was just suddenly reminded of everything that happened in tk. so much yet so little. so real, yet now, it seems everyone forgot about everything? i dont noe. but i know, i really miss the feeling of being close to someone.now, it somehow only becomes a memory. like evrything else. we're all in our different worlds. and this is just how the world works i guess. its kinda sad isn't it. haiz.

makes me wanna treasure those who are still here living around the boundaries or in my world.


i shall make a promise to myself today. i shant raise my voice at anyone for one whole week and i shall be nicer to everyone. yups. no matter how they treat me.

i hope lingxiu is alright and safe at the hosp...gonna follow VIII to hosp on sat...

and im really looking forward to jalan rayer on SUndaY!



and its really scary looking at the j2s taking their As. and how miss tan is really bugging us to study these holidays and not play the whole time.

and i do realise how time is gonna fly past next year too....

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went for cdp helper today, then maths peer tutoring..
ended up tutoring kristine and hawling...great tutees they are. =) my first time being asked to tutor someone...gives me first-hand experience to what its gonna be like what i imagine will come true- me and hammie in the same secondary school teaching maths. haha. then hammie will be ic of mldds and i'll be ic of netball of that school. then we'll go for lunch together.lol.dreams.


a change of date for harry potter again.

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history seems to be repeating itself for me.









J = D ????



maybe.




no wonder im feeling rotten now.
coz i've had this feeling once before.




i thought it was so secondary school.




why dont you just let it go.

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the biggest assumption mankind makes:
we will always see our loved ones tomorrow.
it doesnt matter if we dont say bye or do our hugs today.
coz we'll see each other tomorrow.
or the day after.



but,
how can we be so sure?
its so easy to die any time, any where, any place.
we always take things for granted.
is it now then really necessary to be angry at the ones you love most?

no one knows what the future will hold.
no one noes if there is even a future.

so we only hope and aim and dream.

yeah, it might sound sadistic but its a fact of life.

i could be now, writing this stuff down, and the next thing i know im dead. and this blog will be gone. haha. what a thought.

hah.dont get me wrong. im not planning to kill myself or anything like that.haha. neither am i sadistic up to the extent that i think im going to die tomorrow.
its just that i wish people would appreciate other people better.
is it really necessary to be angry, rude or hurt someone so intentionallY?

i told my mum i sayang her. maybe thats what i should be doing everyday.

why do people have so much hate, i just dont understand.

why must other people make other people make themselves feel inferior just because they have the power to do so. or should i say the ability.

why must friends take their friends for granted.

the biggest mistake of mankind:
is to appreciate something only when its gone from their lives.

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yesterday went towsville primary school to umpire with jiamein.

boy was it lotsa fun..suddenly feel like being a primary school teacher..i really dont mind ya noe..then i can be the teacher ic of netball..hahah. thne i'll get jc students to come down to help my team. lol. all those small kids running around. and seriously there was so much noise like it was worse than a wet market.haha. and the recess bell was so funNY!! i thought it was a fire drill i swear..i almost wanted to stop the netball game and ask everyone to aassemble like the rest. ahakz.

miss hanisah. a primary school teacher. hmmmm....

and jiamein, i agree with you that primary school kid student leader is so much dao-er than you are..haha. tho you are still considerd dao to me still...


sighz. i dont noe whats going on between us both. you seem different suddenly. i desperately hope everything will be ok very soon coz i dont think i can take it any longer this hostile feeling your potraying towards me.

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PW is over.like finally.ahah.my presentation was ok but i screwed up my first question Q and A. stutter stutter and then blank out. so much for my project about mental skills training and deep breathing and how to overcome the problem of students blanking out during examinations. bah. but im glad its over. no more silly things like PI and EOM and I and R and what not. it felt great to delete the whole PW file in my comp. =)

and to nat, nabing, welyon, LOL. sorry if like you know throughout the process of PW anything said wronfully is not meant.hmm, you guys noe what i mean.but you gotta agree with me that we have become closer after these 6 months right? heh.
this is the kinda thing that follows the saying dont cry coz its over but smile coz it happened. hahaha.


after PW, went out wtih PW mates(except Welyon coz he had some council meeting and we bullied him by asking him to send the gpf file..muaahha.we're so evil) to watch movie! ended up at toa payoh. and wanted to watch sky high but it was so late at 1pm. so we rushed and bought tix for "all about love". it already started when we went in. it was a nice movie really. i really liked it. as usual, i really like love stories, hearing it, watching it, anything...

just kinda got me thinking. as usual whats new.haha. its like these shows are so fairytale like. its all so perfect and coincidental. and the hero is always so sweet doing something so sweet for the gal, something funny that even as an audience when you watch the movie you just feel the love all around you even though its not actually happening to you...

but when you step out of the theatre and the show ends..everything just sinks back in...and i just feel like the movie was just too perfect to be true..like fiction? could this stuff acutally be non-fiction? as in has anyone actually had that experience like what they really potray in the movies. i doubt so. same goes for storybooks..sometimes they're just too perfect. like too good to be true? ahh, i dont noe. it just disturbs me. sometimes i feel that romantic movies are just to raise your hopes up only to end up leaving you crushed when you face the real world that is lacking in something called love.

nevertheless, no matter what i say, i still prefer romance to horror movies. haha. i guess the best is still comedy. or maybe a mixture of romance and comedy.


*umpiring tmr at townsville


what to look forward to: 16th nov jalan raya with theM!! 26th nov jalan Rayer With Another THem! hopefully its still on. chalet on 2nd dec! an outing with VIII? after A levels to see liana agaiN! gosh when was the last time i saw that notty girl. and class outing 3805! and i guess all the umpcoming trainings.haha. hmm, and last but not least, my bdae! hee.
but the sad thing is everything seems to be clashing in november.boohoo.

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finally.
did anyone miss me blogging.hahah.right hanisah.


anyway, the truth is i have been so lazy to just update this. im kinda drifting away from my blog.but anyO hows, many well wishes to the different people,


to all my muslim friends, those who even happen to come across this dead blog of mine, Selamat HAri rAya, mAAf zahIr batIn. Love you guys so forgive me kay if i ever ever did anything salah yang menyakitkan ke...may Allah bless us all, insya-Allah.

to all j2s, All the very very best for your A levels and may it be a breeze and look forward to after that!!

to all sec4s, Good luck foR O levels TOO!! its gonna be over before you noe it and the next thing will be prom! =)

to xiao tong, biggie and hammie. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! november babies rocks! hahahah. and to filzah and sharini, my two dearest pri skl mates whom i seem to have lost contact, sigh, kalau-kalau u guys happen to read this, miss you all loads and happy advanced bdae too! and of course, to the baby one day earlier than me, FIZAH! happy advanced advacned bdae toO! ahakz.

ohh and i guess it not too late to wish HAppy deepavali as well! haha.


tomorrow is the final day of PROJECT wORk. thank GOd it's gonna be ove rin les sthan 24 hours..i can finally delete all the files in my comp on PW that is over loading my comp, haha.

which reminds me, to all J-ones having OP exam tmr, wed and thurs, SPeaK WElL!! Be confident!.cheh.

i think it'll be quite some time before i update again...hehe. i predict my laziness coming again...

i wonder when the next outing with VIII will be,december hopefully. and 16th nov better work out!! with the tk people.woohoo.


and as for me, im just drifting along, to where the holidays and life takes me.. wish desperately i could go to ireland like leong parn. just get out of Singapore for a while...i saw this show on Suria some bintang di turkey or something like that, its so beautiful there...its just the feeling of confinement here is so strong, that it surprises me that there's still other muslims celebrating raya in their own way halfway across the world. i wanna see that world. and who knows mr right could be there...haha. come on hunn. a turkish? dream on.


trying to keep an open mind for now.



and i almost forgot! JOLYN!! if you ever read this, thank you so much and i really apprecitae what you;ve done for me. its really means a lot to me and it will definitely be a source of inspiration for me to last another year of jc life. =)

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