i want to give her strength.

but i myself am falling apart inside.

how do i give strength then?

not so strong after all.


meeting VIII tmr.
can't wait.=)
one of my few sources of strengths.
the other sources seems to be fading away.
not for good i hope. :X

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to zy:
haha.this is funny we're replying each other on each others' blog.lol. the "forgotten" part is someone close to you. ha. and other people ah.not only one person. but maybe it's just me being too sensitive again. u noe me. i get carried away sometimes but i was really hurt. *sobz* u better not forget me hor. haha. u noe how insecured i can get. lol.


anyway,
today was a better day. and nothing can make it better than knowing and hearing about a real love story unfolding right before my eyes. nah, not superman and loise lane like the pic below. of course there's no superman. fiction. but the love is non-fiction. lwhen i look at the picture below, i think of kakak an and him. it's so sweet! they even have their own blog. and the tag-board is only dominated by the two of them. and they started out with how they met each other. it's so sweet and funny i wanna laugh and cry at the same time. their story really inspires me. maybe gives me hope. after all, im only 18.haha. she's 25. nevertheless it gives me hope. she's like me you see. dont have many guy friends, quite reserved when it comes to this issue and all. and she's been waiting for him for so longg. and finally she met him and they're sailing right through now. ada hikmah di sebalik semuanya. and you noe whats the sweetest sweetest thing i thought about them, they're so shy! and when they finally opened up, he said to her " After 5 yrs I finally met u. What took u so long? I wanna make it rite this time. Lets do this together dear. Luv ya so much! Thx". awwww, especially the first part. it's like patience you noe. not just in this area, but everything requied patient. i read love stories in books, and sometimes i just dont believe that it really happens coz it's always so picture perfect. but now, it's really happening to my dearest dearest cousin who has waited sooo long. i guess she prayed real hard. and i've never NEVER seen her so happy. her story gives me hope. i really pray she'll be happy with him. insya-Allah. maner tahu boleh makan nasi minyak ke, jadi kendarat soon. muahahhaa. luckily she doesnt read my blog. khekhe.











funny how im so distracted by this thing, when there's so many things gg during this period of time.

.:enamored_hunn was pricked and bled at 7:24:00 pm:.

it sucks to be forgotten.


oh wells. yesterday was a horrid day. as much as i wanted to enjoy career fair i was just distaracted by soo many things and so many actions people did around me.
and zhiyen, if your reading this, sorry boud yest online at msn K? i didnt mean what i said. and i noe when u said"so scary" u meant me right? haha. i can be a bit weird sometimes i know. sorry..i was really having a bad day.


thank god kakak an had good news when she came over to my house. at least something. so proud of her.

ahh, all i can say now is let it go man. today's a holiday.yesterday was the past.

.:enamored_hunn was pricked and bled at 7:59:00 am:.
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havent been here in a while now.

well, basically i've screwed up midyears.just wait for results really. hah. but i cant be bothered any more. time to work harder really. but not NOW. im still in the enjoying mood after watching superman returnS(WooHOOlove it!my hero.), cars and hikmah and a whole lot of other shows the past weekend.

ok. i just wanna anounce 2 things. one, ive changed my hp number and i've messaged everyone on my contact list. but if those of you my friends who happen to read this blog, and didnt receive my sms, tag me ok! i'll give you my new number :) dont really wanna put it here. k. two, AJ DRAMA on 14th July 2006!!! anyone interested? msg me ok?? last year's drama was gOOD! according to the feedback of the audience so this year's gonna be good as well so come!! 8pm at aj auditorium.

well, i screwed up oral also but i dont wanna think about it. met sharini there and realised how much i miss my primary school friends. and no, im not influenced by adib who talked about his primary school days on his blog, hah..but really miss them. it's like i used to go to Filzah's house practically everyday after primary school and play with her cat and theme park and the sims and we would just talk and scream in her empty house and laugh and laugh. or if not we will just be engrossed reading storybooks in her cosy cosy room. aircon somemore.lol. man i love that girl. we were so close then thati still remmeber so clearly when we fought i cried in malay class and cikgu jumaina had to lead me out of class. but i noe things so different now, she's in her world i'm in mine. she's changed so have i, cant deny that. heard she has a bf now. that girl that used to hate guys.lol. and look who has a bf first.hah. i know she'll never read this, but I don’t noe it’s just so hard to approach some one you don’t noe anymore.. and I don’t noe, maybe she doesn’t remember the things I remember and treasure. Argh. I noe that’s assuming but, haiz. I’ll always be praying she’s happy and always being a great gal to her great parents.
and besides her, of course there’s hafiana and diyanah and sharini too. We used to be close. Especially me and diyanah. Her mom noes me and her being in the same ngaji as me, I’d accompany her home when she was scared of the mats under her block. Some hero I was trying to be. LOL, come to think of it that was so funny. But I guess I was so unnoticeable and small back then that they didn’t disturb me and disturb duyanah more like it so I accompanied her home. Haha. But I heard from sharini she’s changed a whole lot. But somehow I noe inside she’s still the same person. The same sweet diyanah I noe. Gossipi her. LoL. But I miss her too lah. And sharini and hafiana. Hafiana hafiana. *shakes head* haiz. Entah lah. Sharini had a date with *aheM* the last time I heard during oral. I wish her the best man. And as usual, back away hunn. Mengundur diri lah aku lagi. Ok nvm. Some of u would understand. I don’t noe, as much as I miss them, I doubt im being missed. But just hope they all be successful in their lives dunia and akhirat, insya-Allah. I wish to meet up with them, maybe we’ll meet again in U or something in working life or something, but till then. I really really miss them and love them.


Why am I so emo today?
Haiz

oh well. anyway, watching mega perdana now, i've always wanted to join dikir barat. ahah. no opportunity i guess. and last year we wanted to put up a dikir barat performance and tak jadi also.

ahh, something to be happy about would definitely be the brownies turned out well again. after the backfire of the last brownies ugh. ming na and seeming and me set off at 12.45 after skul to go to some free dental check up, but ended up at toa payoh polyclinic at the dental clinic to go for check up and our teeth were all ok! haha! how paranoid can we get man! having cavaties and all. and that cost me 7 dollars plus. and the next appointment is on 23rd november. according to seeming, it's good we have a check up then then our teeth will be shining during prom but im having second and third thoughts in fact about gg to prom. really. oh well, anyway, there was thi policeman who was saying to us "walk straight turn right and take the lft up the 3rs level". and we were like all puzzled how did he knoWW we were gg to the dentist??? like, does it say in our face, oh we're going to the dentist please tell us the direction, or does our teeth really look bad that he just KNOWs we were gg to the dentist. anyway, after gg up to the dentis, gg down to the pharmacy, up again and down again (mingNA!haha) we were done and took off. and while gg out we met the same policeman, and he said, sorry girls and (cutally bowed a bit when he said sorry) and he said that he thought we were gg to the old folks home on the third floor which happneed to be on the third level. and we laughed and he smiled. and that was when i fell for him.lol. crush lah.infactuation. he was so humble, k not humble maybe nice, like he had the moral courage, k not moral courage but guts to just comeup to us and say sorry that he made us confused and all. it was so sweet. lol. see, im easily pleased man. do ajcians like always go tot the old folks hime to volunteer or smth? maybe thats why he got confused. oh, and mingna caught his name. she thinks its Ali. lol. ok lah. enough about that.

holiday this thursday cant wait. class outing! yeayness. at aileen's house watching movie. friday, interhouse netball, hope everything runs smoothly, and mark, if you're reading this, sorry cant pplay. dont wanna play lah, its more imprt that the event runs smoothly since im the head of the thing than playing a agame that im already so used to. and im umpiring so cant exactly play all the time right.im sure xuemin they all willd o just fine. netball's really a team game, sometimes even when you have a few star players it doesnt work out.

k, im so sleepy now. wanna say more stuff but thats about it now. toodles.

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